Tuesday, August 16

Ruby

Last night I read Ruby's story. (find it here)
My heart aches for her family.
Don't read it if you don't want to cry your eyes out.
Little Ruby was 7 months old. She passed away last week from liver failure. She had a disease called Caroli's Disease/Syndrome. She was on the transplant list for months. They didn't find a match in time and her little body just couldn't fight anymore.
Last night I cried and cried for Ruby's mom....I don't even know her but I can't imagine having to watch your baby suffer like that.
Last night I went into my babies' room and stared at them while they slept.

Today I wanted to hold them all day long.
Today I kissed them a few more times.
Today I told them how much I loved them a few more times.
Today I played with them on the floor.
Today I got to see their sweet smiles.
Today I held them close and didn't want to ever let go.
Today I gave them a bath.
Today I heard them laugh.
Today I took them for walk.
Today I had little conversations with them, and wondered what they were trying to say back.
Today I fed them and changed their diapers.
Today I watched them sleep.
Today I rocked them and sang to them.

I get to do these things everyday.

Today I didn't take them for granted.
Today I didn't get one thing done.
But today, I don't care.

Today my heart still hurts for little Ruby's family.
But today I am grateful for the reminder of what is important in life.
Starting today I hope I can be better about not taking these little moments for granted. Life is short and you never know when it might be the last time you get to tell someone how much they mean to you.
Starting today I want to enjoy the little moments more. I want to stop stressing about the laundry or the dishes not getting done.
Starting today I want to enjoy this time of my life instead of always looking forward to what comes next. Time passes so quickly and my girls are growing up so fast. I don't want to look back and have regrets. Or feel that I missed out on this time of their lives because I was busy worrying about other things. They are only little once and I want to soak up every second of them while I still can.
Who cares if my house isn't perfectly clean all the time? What does it matter if the dishes sit in the sink a little longer?
Those things aren't really important. My #1 priority is my family. I am so blessed to have them. Being a mom is the best job I've ever had.
Even when we have rough days, I hope I can remember how lucky and truly blessed I am.

1 comment:

Jaime Stephens said...

Good reminders.. I know I always need it so thanks..

Cute pictures of the lake looks like you guys had a blast and those sweet babies were great!